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Dear Mom,

I still can't change your picture on my phone. I feel guilty. It is stupid because I hate looking at your photos I miss you so much. I wish you had taken more pics. I want more pictured of you and yet avoid the ones I have.
I found a gift for mother in law for mothers day. I don't really even want to buy it because it just doesn't seem fair that I can't get you one.
Baby girl is fussy tonight. We go see a surgeon tomorrow to see if they want to do a surgery. I don't think they will. I do want her comfortable and sometimes think she is in pain. I don't know how you did it. Parenthood is hard. I miss myself at times.
I remember that you took time for you and that has taught me that it is OK to still be me.
Love you xoxo